Lazaris: Friend or Fraud?

Our Experience

Since then, we've acquired nearly 200 tapes and attended many seminars. We were creating all sorts of successes and miracles. We had been similarly successful prior to our introduction to Lazaris, but now our work seemed more focused and reinforced. We took the information very seriously and became more and more convinced that Lazaris truly was a loving being from the Higher Realms. Once in a while we would hear something on a tape or from someone who was involved with Concept: Synergy that did not quite sit right, but we would gloss it over. We did quite well with the materials prior to having personal involvement with Jach, Peny, the Gang, or other "friends of Lazaris"

Then, in 1996, the Jach and Lazaris Room opened on the Lazaris website. Katie joined first, and Ted joined about a year later. We were so excited about the opportunity to interact with other friends of the entity, and best of all, to have the benefit of just about daily interactions with Jach, Peny, and those closest to Lazaris. How could we fail to benefit from their great insights and wisdom, those closest and dearest to the entity? For a long time the forum functioned for us as an adjunct to the tapes and seminars. We read the daily thoughts and feelings of other posters, the feedback from Jach and Peny, posted our own successes and life dilemmas, sharing and receiving advise and information.

From the beginning we noted a bit of mob mentality, but first we ignored it, then we excused it and explained it away. Sometimes we even participated in it. When we would note that certain people seemed to post in clusters, one would post and inevitably all or most of the same people would post in support and agreement, sometimes with nothing more to say than "brilliant post", "thanks for saying that", etc. we didn't think too much about it. After awhile though, it started to become annoying and puzzling. Then we realized that it was ALWAYS the same people, the same words, the same "me too" posts. It started to feel like ganging up, and often it was. We would observe that someone would post what seemed to us to be an innocent comment or question, and the pattern began. The person was overwhelmed (yeah, we can use that word now without a knee jerk) with strong admonitions, judgments, decrees as to their state of consciousness for writing such a thing, with post after post saying essentially the same things, often the posts weren't even addressed to the person in question, but back and forth between the "gang" who then began referring to the poster in the third person, as though they weren't even participating. For those who are unaware, being "overwhelmed" is a sure symptom that one is in "negative ego", one of the loaded language concepts deliberately employed as a manipulation devise in the forum.

Posters had demands placed on them. If someone posts to you, you must post back. If they posted back "incorrectly" and used as an excuse that they were overwhelmed or short on time, they were admonished and declared to be in negative ego, martyr, victim, child, adolescent, or all of the above. If they took their time posting, they were irresponsible, and all or some of the above. We began to dread the thought of coming under such scrutiny as a result of our posts. It was humiliating to watch, and even more humiliating to become a part of. The worst thing that could happen would be for Peny to join in. What a profound humiliation that was! Jach, we noted for the most part stayed out of these frays. We wondered about that too. We now believe that Jach and Peny play the age old manipulation game "Good Cop/Bad Cop".

How could anyone respond in any way other than to judge oneself against any negative evaluations which arose from these conflicts? We eventually realized that the "me too" posters were known as the "Orlando Gang" or sometimes "Forum Management". Now, we began to wonder just exactly who comprised the Management, and why we were never told that certain people had more responsibility, or were being paid to post in the Forum? We swept those questions under the carpet too. We reminded ourselves that we were in the company of those closest to Lazaris, especially Peny who the great entity found to be a shining light in the Universe. How could we question or doubt THEM? When something was wrong, it had to be with US. THEY could never be wrong. Lazaris chose them, especially Peny, and these were Peny's closest friends. Noone ever found flaw with their posts.

So we swept and swept, denied and ignored and the pile under that rug started to get pretty big. We got to know Peny pretty well over those years. We were hard put to say that we liked her, although we did try very very hard. She was usually short tempered, sharp spoken, and careless in her interactions. Sometimes she was down right nasty, and many many times she made statements which we knew were false, just we never dared question her, we just kept questioning ourselves. When she got nasty, we found ourselves getting nastier with people in our lives. Isn't this after all how a true Magician looks? Weren't we there to learn, and who better to learn from than the great shining light Peny? We plugged along, processing, programming, always trying to be good enough to get it.

The Forum became more and more a focus as we participated more actively . It seems that after awhile we were either reading or posting in the forum, discussing it, and then digging through to find the appropriate tape, or ordering a new tape, listening, processing programming, buying new crystals, running up to San Francisco for an evening, or a weekend when we could, anything to try to figure out why we were so flawed that we kept finding problems and inconstancies in the forum, and worst of all, why we just couldn't get past our discomfort with Peny and her Gang.

Oh what lowly fools we must be. Here we were in the midst of all this magnificence and incredible love, and often all we felt was crappy and confused. At the same time though, our lives continued to improve as we worked the magic. We were truly becoming Magicians, that was a solid fact. Often we felt "guilty" because our dreams and aspirations manifested even though we had not employed the latest technique, or done the work in the way Lazaris taught us to do it. Somehow though, we thought, Lazaris was raising our resonance, and we were doing magic. While our private lives were increasingly reflecting our magic, our interactions in the forum were increasingly becoming more difficult. We rarely felt magical there, but explained it away as the consequence of being in the company of those much further advanced than we...