A few days ago I received my last Lazaris tape in the mail.. the last one of the year 2000.

I guess it was already in the mail before I cancelled my standing order.

I thought of just pitching it but I wanted to see what its like listening with less "entranced" ears.

Amazing, it is becoming clear to me just how much I have been compensating and filling in the blanks where Lazaris' "brilliance" is concerned.

Of course, when you have decided that a source is intelligent and worthwile, you approach the material as such, in the same way when someone you respect is saying something you consider it with more attention.

This tape is a ridiculously boring retread of a mush of concepts Lazaris has been blathering about for years. And not a particulary interesting one.

It seems Jach is becoming very lazy and using more and more comfort buzz words like "magician" and "mapmaker" etc. I have had a hard time focusing on the past 12 tapes or so but I listened to them dutifully.

It is amazing how lacking in substance they really are.

What stunned me is the amount of verbiage Jachzaris barfs up without saying anything.

It takes a good 5 minutes for them just to say "welcome, welcome" and what a "joy" it is to be here and then for a solid 30 minutes or so Jach just yammers on about NOTHING.

Some of it even makes little sense.

I wonder if anyone else has had this experience.

I think we were the ones in trance.

Cheers,

Interesting post!

It seems that the main thing most Lazaris followers become intimate with is our sense of inadequacy when those allegedly infallible techniques fail to work. We all know only too well that it is only because of our own personal shortcomings and "blockages" that they don't.

Isn't it incredible how many people continue for years on end to chase that carrot at the end of a stick? One more technique, one more seminar, one more meditation, and I'll have this aced. Jesus! I remember times when I was literally breaking out in a cold sweat trying to get this that or the other technique down pat. I also remember the hours and hours spent in private reflection "processing" out all my negativity.

These "processings" were some of the most anxiety ridden times of my life. God, I would sit for hours and think, feel, write, write, stare in the mirror, berate myself for abusing my ego, program my new crystal skull, go into meditation, hand my poor battered ego back over for the millionth time to Lazaris and my H.S for healing, double tetrahedron to the causal plane throught the mists of manifestation where I would do the 33 second technique.

Mea culpa, Mea culpa, Mea maxima culpa. (Through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault) How many times I beat my chest and anguished over knowing that there was this horrible part of me that just would not RECEIVE!!

God damn those bastards.

At least I was spared that particular aspect that you mention, trying to establish a romantic relationship with a fellow Lazarian.
Fortunately and miraculously mine survived all this. There were some shady moments though, that is for sure. It's pretty hard not to put your significant other into the same fires of doubt and blame where we put ourselves.

I'm sorry Ted, very sorry for every little swipe I took over the years at your "negative ego, martyr, victim, savior, etc." You never deserved it, and neither did I. Thank God we survived it, and no thanks to Con:Sin. I'm sorry I can't say the same for our relationship with our only daughter.

I did have one stellar processing success, however. That was the heart thumping work I did to get past my "negative ego" impressions about Peny. I worked on that one for the better part of a month as the sole focus of my hard inner work. I programmed to see Peny as she truly is. Well, guess what?

Thanks, Flo, for a wonderful post. I agree with what you say, especially about the "new and improved" techniques we were constantly receiving.

I have to admit I have not followed this thread very closely, but I want to respond to something that seems to be a theme. That is the idea that C:S or Lazaris promises that material reality should easily be abundant because we are so spiritual. What I got VERY strongly from Lazaris, over and over again, was that material reality could easily be abundant because it isn't real -- it is, and I quote, "silly putty." We can have ALL OF THE SILLY PUTTY THAT WE WANT. And nobody had to even be "spiritual", or anything, except maybe willing. or deserving. or... And because it isn't real, it is all done with mirrors, so to speak, as soon as we get the hang of the mirrors, voila! Just recognize, acknowledge, forgive, and change. If that doesn't work right away, it is because of a resistance to recognizing. Or acknowledging. Or forgiving. Or changing. But change, which happens instantly, will happen if we will just be more brutally honest with ourselves, but more tender with others, more and more owning that we might still be in martyr, in self-pity, in shame, obeying our dark law, stuck in our web of anxiety, hanging onto the old bottom line, poisons, hidden agendas, oh, and of course, go to the causal plane, meet your ancient one half-blind, be willing to receive, be a winner not a loser, take your higher self, meet the old man, meet the old woman, meet all the archetypes, speak to all the muses, spin a disc, dance in triumph, go out on a mill, be sure to integrate all of the faces of the self, and practice a seven-day ritual every solstice and equinox, create a temple of dreams, go there every night, create a temple of your soul, go there every night, discover your spiritual heritage, go there every night, meet your boundary dweller, meet your bottom feeder, make a mask, take off the cloak of your world's disguise, program for 33 seconds, program with tones, work with your shadow, awaken your desire, awaken your brain, learn your personality drive, your lean, your soul's path, your ego's path, go to the very Goddess herself, go to the shining ones, go to the eaglepeople, the crystalpeople, the catpeople, the dolphin people, go to the dog and cat people, go to your safe place, go to the edge of safety, go to the valley of lost souls, find your lost dreams, release your old dreams, work with your child, your adolescent, your young adult, your old adult, allow more of Lazaris' love, allow more of your higher self's love, expand your success cube, find that ribbon of road, discover your subconscious, go to the imaginal realm, go to Sirius, go to Lemuria, go the crystal cave, go in your double-tetrahedron, go in a dewdrop, go through the rip in time and space, meet a dwarf or gnome, meet a fairy, meet your council, meet an effeminate man, meet a bawdy woman, and don't forget to review all four steps to all seven processes for all of the above. Oh god, I have to stop because it is getting really late, but you all know I could GO ON AND ON AND ON!!!!!!!! But, dear ones, it is easy! It is not simple, but it is easy. It is not complicated, but it is complex. Only our martyrs fear the complex. It is silly putty, and we can have all the silly putty we want. There is nothing to stop us. If we don't have what we want in our reality, all we have to do is recognize, acknowledge, forgive and .....................