Hey All,

In light of Michaell North's recent suicide and Peny's death from undisclosed circumstances, many people have been asking questions.

It appears from what we have learned here and the emails that Jach has sent to selected followers that Concept Synergy is dedicated to manipulating silence around this issue and will shortly decide what to tell its followers to think and feel about it.

In short they will frame a "spiritually acceptable" set of thoughts and feelings for the follower.

They will present a context for those thoughts and feelings for the follower and interpret them accordingly.

Sound familiar? Why, it is rather similar to Lazaris charachterization of the negative ego.

The negative ego thinks for you when you refuse to think for yourself.

The days to come will reveal Concept Synergy's honor or lack of it. Will Concept Synergy adopt the charachter of the negative ego and do the thinking and feeling and interpreting for you?.

Not permitting your own thoughts and feelings due consideration where these tragic, premature deaths are concerned is a dangerous thing.

Someone will think for you if you won't think and feel for yourself. In this case someone with a vested interest in your pocketbook, in my opinion.

Interesting also to note how the behaviour of Concept Synergy in the weeks following Michaell and Peny's sudden deaths has not subscribed to any of what Lazaris teaches about love.

Are they taking responsiblity in terms of addressing the impactof these deaths on those that work with Lazaris and have come to regard Peny and Michaell through instruction and exemplars of a life "spiritually well lived" ?

Do you feel a sense of security? a reduced fear of loss? a sense of being respected?

I would urge anyone in conflict over the treatment they are receiving from Concept Synergy to pull out the higher self book and run down the descripitions of the actions you take to produce the state of being called love.

So if what is coming at you isn't love by any healthy standard, then what is it?

Privacy is a different issue. They only have the right to privacy to the extent that they can shame you into feeling like a slug for asking questions.

And honestly, are people being silent out of respect or out of fear?

And respect to what??? What the hell is being respected?

Please think this through, don't give up your thought and feeling and discernment in order to appease a bunch of people trying to fill a ballroom.

Jeremiah

Jade, you wrote something that has reminded me of the essence of what bothers me about Lazaris, C:S, and another organization I have been aware of. Being told what to say, do, think, and feel, under the guise of freedom and personal authority.

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L made the Map for followers' spirituality. Conveniently structured, labelled, and packaged. But YOU are the "mapmakers." The Orb really has a way with words.

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The idea that there is some predetermined end goal, known to L, or GGATI, or whatever, such as Going Home (which totally freaked me out, when all my friends were oohing and ahhing over it), or becoming a vessel of the Goddess, which also freaked me out, is really repugnant to me. Again, I thought for a long time that there was something wrong with me, as I had chosen this as my spiritual path.

But, it gets to the very core of everything that is wrong with it for me, vis a vis my spirituality. This is no unfolding, no adventure, unless you count going to someplace like Epcot an adventure. If I am told I am a mapmaker, I guess I want that to mean I have something to decide about what the map looks like, why it exists, and where it leads me, or anyone else who wants to look at it. But, I always am really supposed to take dictation, and draw what I am told to draw, and color inside the lines of whatever is the latest system of the month that I am being shown. I am supposed to do whatever I am told in the latest tape, workshop, new convoluted myth, etc. Be spoonfed my spirituality. If I don't, I am just not serious about my spirituality. I might even be a loser. At best, in my ego.(btw What a fucked up, mean way to see people -- winners and losers. What happened to not comparing ourselves to each other? Oh, yeah, then it was softened to winners, and not quite being the winners we could be.)

I was told, I have the authority, I need to claim authorship of my own reality. And yet, there is this quite obvious agenda that is actually being laid out for me to follow, all structured, labeled, packaged, as Jade pointed out.

It is ironic to me that C:S moved to Orlando, home of the canned ---errr-- planned -- experience. Because, in spite of the ever-expanding and elaborate cosmology, that is being put forth by Lazaris, those working with those materials closely are very tightly corralled into very particular channels of thinking and feeling! It is his story, told to us, to absorb and assimilate. And, in addition to the money involved, (certainly the motivating force behind the Disney plan, not to mention C:S), the degree of control simply for the sake of control becomes mind-boggling. (Control seems to me to be as much motivation as the almighty dollar, for C:S.)

I have wondered at Lazaris indulgently speaking of moving beyond an adolescent mentality, as he told us as absolute fact about the Siriuns, arriving here through a portal that isn't actually in physical reality, having to foil the evil Orions, down from their own portal, without doing further harm to the poor mistreated Earth creatures. Or that we all have stellar heritage. Or that working with the elaborately spun Merlin/Arthur material, reminiscent to me of Hollywood fantasy movies, is really the only stream, or whatever, that leads all the way home, wherever that is? I have images, knowledge, and ideas, from workshops, about Lemuria and Atlantis, that are as detailed, exacting and complete, as any "collective" history of Europe, or Asia, that I studied in school. And I'm not saying that it is all untrue. In MY spirituality, in MY metaphysics, a lot of the information really rings true. (A lot of it doesn't)

I can't stand it when someone is telling me what to think, what to believe, and how, and why. Although I worked really hard to allow Lazaris and others to do just that for a number of years, it really is hateful to me. I kept sweeping so much of my own true feelings under the rug. I do it no more. I want my spirituality wild and free.

I hate the feeling that I am being led along a particular river, through a particular woods, to a particular clearing, through one opening to another, to walk a particular path, which leads me to a certain tree in a certain grove, where a certain archetype will tell me to jump over this hoop and then that, so that I arrive at the particular pool (trough) that a loving GGATI supposedly had waiting for me to drink out of. If, of course, I had been a good enough vessel of light. Which nobody would have told me how to actually do or be. So I could never be sure that I was at the right trough -- errrr -- pond. But, I should be taking dictation all the way, so that I could make the map. Uh, whose map? Mine, of course. Lazaris, and my Higher Self, and the shining ones, and the ancient ones, and the crystal people, and the eagle people, and the faces of the soul, and the knight and ladies (??????????), etc., etc, and so forth, wouldn't have me making any map but my very own, now would they?

I have just been delving a bit into some info on Buddhism, and I think I am beginning to actually understand a phrase that I first came across about 25 years ago: "If you meet the Buddha, kill the Buddha." According to the book I am reading, ([i]Buddha,[/] by Karen Armstrong) this was said by a ninth century master, to emphasize the importance of remaining independent of authority figures.

Give me chaos! I choose freedom, even if it is messy, or even scary, and nobody is able to tell me what the end result will be. I remember someone insisting that my resistance to a feeling that I was being led onto a particular train, on a particular track, with a particular destination, called the Goddess, was because of my problems with my mother. I was projecting my mother onto the Goddess. But, I actually continue to have a problem even with the idea of God, or Goddess, or All That Is, as an ultimate authority that I am here to serve and in some way surrender to -- knuckle under to is what I always hear inside my head.